not much new to post... i spent the last week or so in a crazed frenzy. or, i should say that my mind was in a crazed frenzy. real life went on normally for me. my head was in The Book entirely but not in a productive way. my mind was skipping from anxious, paranoid question to anxious, paranoid question without staying on any of them long enough to actually find any answers.

i have a LOT of plotting to do before i'm ready to write and although i'm confident my idea will carry me through this book, i'm very nervous and unsure about carrying out the actual plotting.

my MC is also being annoyingly shy. she's given me glimpses and i know her voice but i don't know a lot of her back story (is that one word?) and she will not tell me her name. it's driving me absolutely nuts. other major players are forming nicely in my thoughts (and notes!) however. my villain is apparently an attention hog (that is so her!) since she keeps elbowing everyone else out of my head.

anyway, work was sucking -- have i mentioned that i'm working full time at a job i only moderately enjoy on the best of days in an industry i essentially despise? -- and i was becoming obsessed with my dream life of 'full time writer'. it was awful. i know what a long, looooooooooooooong road i have before i can make that change -- if i EVER get to make that change. and in the meantime, i need to keep performing well at my current job since i can't afford to be unemployed. the level of distraction The Book was creating was very, very evil.

i seem to have gotten back on track since yesterday. i've spent most of the last week or so reading other writer's blogs, learning what i can about the writing process. i never knew how much i never knew!!!! yikes. saturday morning is my big date with barnes and noble for reference books.

oh -- speaking of writer's blogs, i have a new addition to my hero list. :) check out rachel vincent at www.rachelvincent.net. she has a 3 book deal with mira with her first book coming out in mid-2007. her blog is also very informative on her writing process and she's really great at posting what i think of as 'conversation starters'. she'll post really interesting questions or debates and solicit feedback or discussion. good stuff.

well, i'm off to finish some work from my currently-earning-a-paycheck-from job.

one last thought -- i have finally started telling people about my decision to write The Book. two friends so far (and the darling, supportive husband, of course). no one has laughed yet! of course, i told one of them in a letter and he hasn't received the letter yet, but dammit, i'm still counting him as not laughing.